Let it snow...

It seems real now, it seems that I can touch that dream...I dont want it to break...Dad was actually seriously talking about me visiting, the expenses, car insurance I have here....
I shall handle this dream with great care for if broken, it might shatter like a glass...I have not wished and wanted for something so bad, Oh Lord, please dont conspire against me this time, I want to get away from this place and be somewhere where I am more myself and where I know I truly belong, Bombay meri jaan....

On the flip side, am I really protective about my friends? Maybe, I am. The way I behave when I am around SD, maybe its true. I just care for my friends, maybe too much, that sometimes they find it choking and invasion of personal space. Need to back off and let them control their lives and I need to focus on mine. I have few things for once I am excited about; hockey, maybe dance and trying for Palship......
Ah, let it snow, let it snow....

Many a times, when so many things go wrong, one just tries to be cautious and careful. Just as people know there are thorns in the rose, no matter what colour the rose is, people are always careful of the thorns when they take a rose in their hands. In a similar fashion, I have met so many odds and evens that it is hard to trust someone right away. When I felt like I wanted to talk to someone yesterday, Chints n JH were online, the two people I love to talk to the most these days. But both of them had some work, then why come online? I remembered a guy's habit he told me about. He would come online and if a person he doesnt want to talk to messages him, he just says he is busy. I hope that is not the case with me

And the following day, I end up chatting with Char for more than 4 hours and he feels we are close friends but I am not willing to get close to him simply because I am tired of trusting people.

But they say, people do not forget walking because they fall so often. And so, I shouldnt stop trusting and live each moment happily, although it is so easy to write and think about it but so hard to exercise at a living moment.