What do you do  when you see your biggest idol turn over and deny the one promise that means the world to you?

It hurts and coping with it, is something I am finding hard to do.

The radio silence is painful

But giving in now, what I have done often, is not an option. Cant be pushed around. No amount of teaming up will deter me this time.

In the process, I may become lonely, would it all be worth it then? I dont know.

Having all my expectations pinned on one individual, is not good, need to find a resolution and coping mechanisms. The drive is missing...