I will post him at the back of my head in the ignore list. It is not his fault, it is mine. First mistake is acceptable but repeating it again is just foolishness.

I am tired of the fear that frequently engulfs me, I am tired of myself not being able to trust. The fear that gets tested again and again, either I can get back to reality or turn a blind eye to it. It is easy to live in illusion but it indeed takes courage to set things straight.

It is not fair, I cant be this selfish. The more I think, the more indecisive I become. I leave this to Almighty who has carved my fate uptil now...

I owe you nothing, you owe me nothing..

I owe u nothing, you owe me nothing

the world is a stage they say, where people bow to the spectators of materialism, lust  and power

if you cant be veracious, serene and loving

then its true that I owe u nothing, you owe me nothing....

The way you see me, it is clearer than crystal water's reflection. Thank you for being so honest and so motivating now and always. I wonder what would I do without you.

A hattrick and Over over you!

I scored my first ever hattrick in hockey today. I gave it my heart, something I havent done since a long time.
At the moment, I am content and happy.

The journey back home was so calming, and I felt like he is out of my system, full and final. I didnt miss him, didnt feel anything. The memories of those calls didnt touch me. He seemed like someone from school I barely knew. Finally! Thank you God.

Reality and zoned out

eventually it all wears off...the season, the fragrance, the tingy feeling...and reality hits again

On the other hand, dribbling the ball with the stick can be so much fun. It feels so good to be back to playing hockey. For some time, I feel like I am in control, so zoned out and so much in control and then scoring that goal...so not reality!

New year!

It seems like, for everyone around me, the year 2009 proved to be bad. For me, the new year is just a change in numbers. Everything else is the same. Time has elapsed, 365 days have gone by. I have lost some, gained some.  

I am thankful of friends that stood by me when the road got tough. My apologies for not being there when you needed me the most, but I was in my own trouble to realize it. 

Happy New Year!