Air of life

Sometimes I think I have reached the saturation point.

The marginal utility has been maximized.

AJ often used to tell me that once you reach that maximum level, its just gonna go down the hill.

Maybe, its time. Maybe, its time for change, for the advent of new things.

If the air of life wants to take me, I shall go but in the meanwhile, how many compromises might I end up making?

Found after getting lost

We all get lost once in a while, sometimes by choice, sometimes due to forces beyond our control. When we learn what it is our soul needs to learn, the path presents itself. Sometimes we see the way out but wander further and deeper despite ourselves; the fear, the anger or the sadness preventing us returning. Sometimes we prefer to be lost and wandering, sometimes it's easier. Sometimes we find our own way out. But regardless, always, we are found.


- Cecelia Ahern, A place called here.

I hide and I hide

I hide the thought of your departure with my dress shopping,
I hide my own probable departure by working 9-5 and thinking its all going to be constant
I hide the change in behaviour of theirs by closing my eyes.

I hide and I hide...
Behind the bushes,
Behind those smiles,
Behind those lies

First day at work

Right after graduation, I expect to do big things, change the world, make a difference, just like everyone.

Its like a superman kinda character, the costume is hidden inside the work clothes and waiting to come out.

On a side note, the people seem nice. I am looking forward to spending some time here although my heart skipped a beat when I heard that an external auditor was in the office.

Recent changes

 -approaching an unnoticed milestone

 -got a job

-planning, planning for future (rather conspiring, lol)

-giving up my old phone for a new number

-getting back to driving

-read two books already

The Email

I expected you to apologize but instead you forwarded me an old email I had send months ago where I was apologizing for something I did. You asked me why had I send the email coz you dont remember now.

Ego, it stands between where you stand now and what you want.

Note to self: Never let ego become such a big issue that you cant have what you want. Never let it come between people you love and care for.

To ZA

A sudden change in the weather

A rift all together,

Final good byes

Arrival of a few

Departures overdue

Life moves on just the same

but certain things remain

Memories, thats all we've had, thats all we take

May God bless you with all the happiness he makes.

Cracked walls

It all started last summer. You are partially right, I was seeking a shoulder and you were there. But what you failed to understand is that when I left, I left a part of myself there, with you. You are the first....

Dont ever discount that. I do care.

My self respect means a lot to me. The cracks just seem to widen, no glue can fix this.