A new beginning awaits

Standing at the crisscrossing of a new life, I want to take a step back and ponder.

No matter what people think, my parents think, I know I can do it, live by myself even though I have never done it before. I will learn, life will teach me. I will bump into walls, get hurt by thorns but at the end, a new me shall be born...

And yet there is this anxiety, but with the best of friends, I know I am just leaving home for another home....

A few lines I penned..

A new horizon, a few new names but the mirror reflects the same…
Hoping for the stars and praying for you,
Leave your footprints no matter where this newness takes you…
Fly high and soar high, don’t look beneath and cry..
You are with me, I am your own…
I am within you…I am your soul..

Cheers to myself

“I did not expect this from you”. “ I am disappointed” .

Its weird how everytime I tell close friends about my recent past, I hear these dialogues and many more (some directly from bolly!) with same analogy. Its hard to explain, coz I know they wouldn’t get it. That is why, I didn’t tell them about it in the first place, right from when it started to when it ended. But I tell them now, not coz I want to, but coz I think I should.

I miss that time, when I did what I wanted to and not what I thought I should. I have realized that many a times, we do things we owe to do rather that what we want to.

This is another phase of getting over it, which is explaining the whole drama to those who still matter. Most of them don’t get it, they think I was dumb but I know what I was and I still know what I am.

And in another perspective, I realised how often we label people as being dumb, I guess, I would be labelled something similar. I don’t care coz thankfully, I did what I wanted to and not what I should. I was sad, but knowing the way I felt for those blissful months, I am happy that I went through all of it, climbing up the hill and then having a nasty fall. It has made me strong, that I can break my heart and still go on, I can trust the wrong person and still survive. I love myself and no matter how disappointed people might be with my decision, I am happy with myself, coz I lived for myself, broke my heart and am back again with a loving heart.

Cheers to myself!