Only ifs are hard, only ifs give you a false sense of hope.

Only if you were here... 

Waiting to know the reason, why. Someday we ll have the answers. 

To you

Theres no me without you

You are the first thing that crosses my mind in the morning and I dream of us before going to sleep to tell my dreams what I want to see

I think of you when I look at the mirror to see myself through your eyes

I think of you when I eat hoping that you have had your meals

I think of you when I am working, what would you be doing, are you out, are you with friends, are you having fun

I think of you when I laugh just imaging how would it all be if you were here

I think of you when I cry just hoping and wishing that it doesnt hurt you the same way it does to me and pray that it gets easier on you

If this isnt love, then I dunno what it is.

Glad to have amazing friends like MJ...made me realize somehow, somewhere why it was worth it the first place...what therapy! 

aaj vishwas dagmagaya ki shayad koi galat faisla le liya
roke uthe, roke chale gaye
aab na jaane aage kya likha hai
aur kitne gham aur gustakhiya hai
jaane kyun, jaane kyun, dil de beithe
shayad koi haseen bhool kar beithe

To watch silently is to partake in someone's wrong actions.

There ll be times when you see someone spoiling themselves, their lives. And you will have to decide whether to tell them or not....to stop them or not.....
I cannot and will not be part of self torment, self destruction.

Dear Self,

Love cannot be contained. It cannot be held back too long. Similarly, it cannot be possessed and controlled.

Trying to give up the yearning of controlling it, almost as if owning it.

The best test is when its set free...

achi khaasi befkuf ban gayi...

There are days when I wonder whether I made the right decision, for now, deeply hurt.

I had truly believed it was worth it, saw something I havent seen since quite sometime, but different worlds, different ideologies, different outlook towards life...

Someday will know.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails 


- A walk to remember



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QENj0UOb4Hk

One of those times when I have nothing to write, nothing to say to myself.

Jis rah pe chalne lagi hu, wada kiya tha khudse ki nahi chalungi.
Phir bhi chal padi hu
na jaane kyun

Waqt kam hai kyunki main khudko bas itni hi der samet sakti hun

Khuda itna toh behram nai ho sakta.

Timing is everything apparently...being at the right place at the right time.

But yet, I firmly believe that if it is meant to be, it will happen.  

When love makes you weak, you make yourself strong. 

Walking down a crowded road, alone, in a city I adore.
Sleeping in a big bed, empty inside out.
How could I not?
I miss you so much that it hurts. 

Even when I am so annoyed with you, when I am angry at you, you still manage to make me smile with all your love.

As your fb status says....This day 3 years ago was a very lucky day.

Ran too much now, after and behind. Now, its time to take a step back.

Running is good but running behind someone is not. 

Good night

As I l wait for my eyes to close and take me to the world of dreams, I miss hearing you say 'Good night' .

Half a decade...

It saddens me to know that he is going to be off soon, for what already seems like eternity.

The past year , I have cherished so much, gotten to know so much, learnt whats not taught in classes, smiled as memories were being created, gave my heart and soul to this person who deserves every bit, whos been with me through thick or thin, whos carried me through tough times and whos been this guard protecting me.

How I wish I could freeze time now and not let him go, but that ll be selfish. We both have careers awaiting for us, the reality standing at the door step.

Theres never a goodbye, its just see you soon..

We are almost there....through thick and thin...we made it! 

Abrupt...

Days and months seem like a waste


Lost what I could get..


And left with nothing


No trust, not even you..