Someday, somewhere

Its been 6 years and I reminisce about you. Read a few old posts and remembered how we used to call you Maggi!

Its your birthday and I am remembering the last birthday of yours when I had just come back from Lonavala. 

Hope you are fine wherever you are, and you are irreplaceable even today. Just know that you motivate me to be a better person everyday and to keep smiling silly. 

Love you loads. 

To smile while saying a goodbye

Life is ever changing and I just cant seem to keep up with it.

Its weird how I met you just sometime ago and it is already time to say goodbye to you.
Its true that you came for a reason and now that reason seems like its met, its time to bid a bye.
But I am glad I met you, for you showed me how easy it is to smile and how contagious it is, especially when I needed it the most.
Thanks for everything, I wont have anyone around to ask if they had lunch or dinner, how many sales.
Gonna miss you buddy!

PS- I just figured out today how your initials TP are completely opposite of PT, someone you remind me of so many times. 

The songs you left behind for me, they are the only things I have of you....
And amongst those songs, a singer is no more now.
Time flies..
I miss you..

Some experiences are hard to explain.
They are hard to be understood.
Like the significance of a movie that you and I wanted to watch. It still reminds me of you.

All these unique experiences make us and that is how we say each person is unique bcause of these unique experiences. 

I believe that our paths will cross again...in a different world, in a different dimension because thats the connection we share....

Dear Pratik...

Even after four years, that hole in my heart is still vacant....in a way it is good, it remains sacred , it reminds me of you and on the other hand, it aches ...

Wherever you are, I hope you are fine.
The memories are always there, as fresh as new
I had always known and still do
Your love, your care
I miss you, but the pain continues to heal
Its just days like these that I dont feel fine
Promise me to meet when its time because I am not going to give up
I want to laugh with you just like old times..


Yeh dooriyan.....In raho ki yeh dooriyan....

Maggi's birthday

Dear Maggi,

Happy 21st Birthday. I prayed for you today, for your family and your sister who has begun a new journey. I hope you are doing great, your style and spreading that happiness. I know you are always there to protect me just like the way you did when I had lost almost all hopes this October.

But you are missed and all those memories engulf me today although I dont have my j. to actually relive those moments

Who would have known that "signing off" in your email would actually mean literally..

Miss you maggi!

Four changes...

I am just so happy today...i heard a good news that Bits, the first cousin of my neighbour, she is getting married. This is just so cool. First it was Ank's sister, then Bunty Bhaiya and finally Pratik's sister, Supriya Di and now I heard Bittu jiji. Oh my god, now my only wish is to be able to go to India this summer, I can hardly wait. Oh God, please grant me this chance...

And this means, hell, we are growing old, (for once, I am feeling tensed but happy abt it) and I am still single and I am approaching that age of getting married soon. But hell, that shall have to wait, for now, I want to enjoy this moment...the people I have grown up with, they are getting married, they are getting married. Let the words sink in....

14th NOVEMBER

I went to Gurudwara not so much because it was Gurpurav, but more because it was 14th november already in India. I had to go to pray not for myself, but for a dear friend lost in the twilight of life, for his family who has lost more than they could ever gain......

S.T is getting married, it is so emotional to even hear about it, hopefully, I shall witness that wedding, for that is what I owe to him and that is what I would have want to do if he were around. Hopefully, God will grant me this opportunity.

For once, if I could, I would want to ask Him, like each person who has lost someone would ask, why him? He was just so young...I wish there was something I could do to change the current situation. But alas, life at times is given and we have constraints as given, nothing can be done, all that is possible is to live with those conditions....

I miss him, but the pain is less now. I miss him when I am with any guy in this world who cracks a joke that does not make me laugh. I miss him when I play badminton. I miss him when I take the bus. I miss him when my cell phone does not ring...And worst, I cant even do anything about it, just go down the memory lane, refresh those moments, feel what I had and also feel what I dont have...

One day, I believe, I will surely meet him. Someday, I will get to tease him again of how insensitive he is and that day, I shall know will be the day when I would have achieved the greatest wish of my life.....