Neutrality

Great news as well as bad news reached me today. Technically, the bad news is not related to me but yet, I feel bad. The good and great news are that one of my good friends,NS, has got engaged (already?). We got a new addition to our family, my uncle was blessed with a baby son. Mom is really happy because it is a son.
I am on an autopilot mode, I dont know how should I be reacting (ofcourse should be happy, duh!!)
What world are we in, when we say the show must go on. In a family, someone has died and sorrowness is prevailing whereas in the other part of the world, someone has come to the world and everyone is so full of glee. Cant things go to a standstill just for a micro second to honour the ones that have passed away? But I guess we cannot afford that, otherwise most of the time we will be in the frozen mode.

Do I technically measure the happiness and sadness, and subtract happiness from sadness and whatever I get is what I should feel? I dont know....

Let it snow...

It seems real now, it seems that I can touch that dream...I dont want it to break...Dad was actually seriously talking about me visiting, the expenses, car insurance I have here....
I shall handle this dream with great care for if broken, it might shatter like a glass...I have not wished and wanted for something so bad, Oh Lord, please dont conspire against me this time, I want to get away from this place and be somewhere where I am more myself and where I know I truly belong, Bombay meri jaan....

On the flip side, am I really protective about my friends? Maybe, I am. The way I behave when I am around SD, maybe its true. I just care for my friends, maybe too much, that sometimes they find it choking and invasion of personal space. Need to back off and let them control their lives and I need to focus on mine. I have few things for once I am excited about; hockey, maybe dance and trying for Palship......
Ah, let it snow, let it snow....

Four changes...

I am just so happy today...i heard a good news that Bits, the first cousin of my neighbour, she is getting married. This is just so cool. First it was Ank's sister, then Bunty Bhaiya and finally Pratik's sister, Supriya Di and now I heard Bittu jiji. Oh my god, now my only wish is to be able to go to India this summer, I can hardly wait. Oh God, please grant me this chance...

And this means, hell, we are growing old, (for once, I am feeling tensed but happy abt it) and I am still single and I am approaching that age of getting married soon. But hell, that shall have to wait, for now, I want to enjoy this moment...the people I have grown up with, they are getting married, they are getting married. Let the words sink in....