That somebody is me.

I always wanted to move back to this city and now that I did, the sad realization is this that, I dont enjoy it. The traffic is nuts, people are always in a rush and so, knowingly or unknowingly rude and mean. There are so limited resources for the number of people out here.

I didnt even realize when I became a small town girl, from being born in one of the biggest cities in the world, to now liking a slow paced life, where it doesnt take an hour to get from one place to another which is barely 15 kms away, where there are no big crazy line ups, where its not all about money, where you dont get stuck on the highway amongst hundreds of million over a long weekend trying to get away from the big city, where there is time to stay still. Its just go go go here.

And strangely, I feel like a victim these days, I have always been a fighter, so being a victim has never been on my cards. I dont fit in, I dont feel like myself.
The recent events have introduced me to crooks and businesses that only care about making money and I feel naive and cant never seem to differentiate the good from the bad.

I am hoping it will get better, if not, thats ok too. Its just a matter of moving back to home when the time is right.

I am a CPA, CA

What an exhilarating process it has been!
With ups and downs, I have finally reached my destination. It may have taken me 4 years but I have been humbled upon with experiences and events that will always stick with me.

I almost gave up twice, but each time, my parents encouraged and motivated me to continue the journey even thoughI had lost confidence in myself. Where would I be without them.

Thank you Dolly, Sweta, Jwal and Giselle for always watching out for me.

 Finally it feels like its time to go home now....

The importance of mundane activities

Some days, even mundane things seem important enough. While I try to hold on to whatever there is left, for that sense of familiarity is comforting.

Not everyone will understand that while you are staying away, you still try hard to be there, to be a part of the day to day life, a conversation here and there.

DT driving

I have always been terrified of driving in downtown Toronto because of the craziness, the street cars, the sheer amount of traffic, one way routes and so many people. Thought I could never drive in downtown Toronto, but I did.

Its just a matter of pushing yourself and putting yourself out there. Some circumstances are challenging but bring out the best in you.

When does wanting something so badly become almost desperately wanting it?

And what if, it is not what is planned for you by the higher orders of life? 

Goodbye 2013

Past year took a lot from me and gave me a lot too. It took away my standing, it took away things I loved, things I thought I will always have.

And somewhere, I decided to not give up.
I challenged myself to become a leader and became the president of a great organization.
I got asked to be the master of ceremony for a 200 + guests event and I did it and faced my stage fear yet again.
I was on radio and spoke my mind.
Travelling came knowing on my door twice and I said yes both times.
And now, I am living my worst fear of being alone..

And all this would not have been possible if my family, my parents did not believe in me.

I am so thankful for the time I got in the past year with my parents, it brought me so close to them.

And so, as we have all bid 2013 a goodbye, lend a ear, a hand and a shoulder to someone, reach out to someone out of the blue, you never know, they might be waiting for it all along.

And put up a good fight with life, it will eventually give in.

Be kind.

I met someone who had not played field hockey since quite a while. She was rusty but you could tell she was happy being back on the turf.

I found out that she would be unable to come to the mini tournament next week. I also found out why.


Our parents are such an integral part of our lives, they are our first heros and heroines. They are with us throughout, supporting, loving and caring for us. To see them go, to know that they have only few weeks to live, that is one of the hardest things to live, to feel.


Be kind and be gentle to people around you, you dont know what battle they are fighting today.

Relationships are always changing, from good to better, some from good to bad..just have to keep up with this change...accept it and move on...you can only put in so much effort..after that, its upto the other person..

I am thankful for what I have in life and feeling blessed regardless.

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays

How important has it become as to how people "perceive" us. The tikka ritual that we have been doing since ages has gotten tarnished overnight because of how people will think about it at Gurudwara.

On a side note, warm Diwali wishes to one and all. May the diyas light up our lives and bring the purity and serenity for times to come.

Newton's third law

For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction - newton's third law. 

At an audit training course, I met a couple of sole proprietors (small practices) who were frustrated with new changes in the audit and the related forms. They were unhappy because they believed that they were being penalized for the fraudulent activities of big giant auditors aka Enron saga where the problem was not due to any rules not being followed but the intentions of the auditors. In return, the CICA has instilled stricter rules around the audit work to be performed which these small proprietors find cumbersome and not relevant to their particular industry. 

We do not realize that at times, our actions have consequences and they affect those around us setting the ball rolling to a chain of reaction in our community.



Like for example, a rash driver meeting with an accident, not only injures himself but also those driving and sharing the road with him. It also slows down the traffic affecting all of those on that road irrespective of whether they were responsible for the accident or not.


On a lighter note...

Fall leaves

As I drive, I see these fall leaves, changing colours to the beautiful yellows and reds. So pretty and so pure.

Nature is charismatic, almost romantic. I could just keep on driving down this road.

Nature has its own way of reaching out to us, to tell us, nothing is constant, change is inevitable.

And soon, these leaves would wither away when the cotton balls of snow falls.
Feel it, love it, savour it until it lasts. 

Timing is everything apparently...being at the right place at the right time.

But yet, I firmly believe that if it is meant to be, it will happen.  

Na na, na na na

Dont try to fill the void in your life with people. Coz people leave and then the emptiness is back to haunt you. Fill this vacuum in your life with your aspirations, your desires and a zeal. 

I have promised to be my own sunshine to my day
So I smile and hum songs at work..
I talk to people that I see often at the gym..
I go out and meet new people
because the only person that is stopping me from being me is me.

Humming random songs while driving and reminiscing about the past...such an uplift! 

Some experiences are hard to explain.
They are hard to be understood.
Like the significance of a movie that you and I wanted to watch. It still reminds me of you.

All these unique experiences make us and that is how we say each person is unique bcause of these unique experiences. 

Aaj akele rehne me bhi sakoon hai, par dil me bhi ajab se khwab hai.
Zindagi badalti hai har mod pe, ek hum hi hai joh har kadam pe door hai. 

Adapt and keep on moving.

Life throws lemons but I decided to make lemonades. 

Everyday reminders

Today, I entered into my calender for an everyday reminder...

Stay positive, talk sweet and smile. 

Priorities

Finally finished this marathon today. I will have to wait for the result for 2 months.

As my eyes open  back to the reality, things have changed yet again.

Dont set someone as ur priority for whom you are option.

Sigh