Turned you into a stranger, because you walked out when I needed it the most. Now there is no place for you in my life. 

And everyday, the door is closing slightly. The light should eventually stop seeping in.

I await for that moment.

Losing someone professionally is hard, especially if it is unforceen.

I saw CG yesterday, he was ok and today, he is no more.

One of the last memories is him explaning me how to get better at work...

Life gets hard at each stage, you lose people to the ultimate separation, involuntarily.

I hope and I pray he is ok and in peace and that his family can endure this harsh fact of life and come out victoriously.

Aaj bhi lage hai kuch adhora sa
Jaise koi raha par hum aab bhi khade hai...
Vade na lete hum toh shayad yeh na hota
Na baat banti aur na adhuri raat hoti

Aab dil ko samjhane lage hai
Jaane do unko jinhe rukna na tha
Jinki awaz me woh dum na raha
Woh kya mohabat nibhayenge

Tute hui umeedein mere kaam ki
Yeh na bhulne dengi ki
Awara logo se wafa aur izzat ki farmaish nai karte
Woh khud kuch kar jaye khud ke liye, wohi badi baat hogi

I went to the police station today for the first time in my life for no wrong reasons. I was a little apprehensive about going coz of how it is showed in movies.

It was really quiet and there was absolutely no one.

I just wanted to appreciate and thank God for keeping me steer clear from situations that would mandate going there. I am deeply blessed to have such a solid up bringing.  

There are some of us , who time and again give them the dagger, in the name of another chance only to realize that they pull it through our heart each time.

"Fuck it then "
How easy to throw it all out.
And here we were waiting to hear I love u.

Those words will remain the last memory , a nasty one. 

Someday, somewhere , someone will love you for who you are, accept your weaknesses , inspire you to be someone who you want to be. Who will always lookout for you each day , each night, whos day isnt complete without your aura.. 

A couple of things in my mind..

Loving comes easy to me, unconditionally, wholly and souly 

Lies I have been fed with. 

If you wanted me to be there next to you, you would make an effort. But you didnt. 

I miss the memories we had, but I am fine without you because what you have become is not what I fell for.

Roller coaster ride I can be, one moment laughing my lungs out and the next crying my eyes out.

Distant with almost everyone, yet being alone is not what I would prefer.