Reflectionzz

2012-02-11T22:06:00.000-05:00

The songs you left behind for me, they are the only things I have of you....
And amongst those songs, a singer is no more now.
Time flies..
I miss you..

2012-02-06T19:10:00.000-05:00

So proud of you Papa, where you have reached and what you have made out of us.
For all the hardships you have faced and conquered each one of them with humbleness.

2012-02-01T21:53:00.001-05:00

Walking down a crowded road, alone, in a city I adore.
Sleeping in a big bed, empty inside out.
How could I not?
I miss you so much that it hurts.

2012-01-27T20:21:00.000-05:00

Why do people try so hard to bring you down? Instead, they could focus on other better things rather than bringing things down. I wish I could ignore these people and shut them out of my life.

2012-01-21T11:08:00.000-05:00

As the results for my colleague were going to be out, I was nervous for him. I was in the same boat as him last year and it brought back those feelings of not knowing the outcome, the anxiety and the fear.

Thank you God for getting me where I am now.

2012-01-06T16:28:00.000-05:00

Wishing everyone a very Happy New Year! Its been a very eventful year with ups and downs.

I am thankful for family, friends and loved ones. Thank you God for yesterday, today and the unforseen future.

2012-01-06T16:26:00.000-05:00

The traces of your past, the cold winds of your last, will come every now and then. You cannot forget it because these winds will not let you.

2011-12-11T16:57:00.000-05:00

At times of your adversity and a nasty fall into a hole, you will realize who is going to be there for you stretching that hand towards you and even willing to listen you complain and cry.

I am thankful for a supportive lot of friends, family and colleagues.

2011-12-11T16:56:00.000-05:00

As the days go by, it gets better. With the support of family, friends and colleagues, the wound gets partially healed.

First taste of being unsuccessful

2011-12-05T00:08:00.001-05:00

Some people in life get everything easily but some people have to work harder, hit a few road blocks to get things in life.

It sucks to be latter.

So much time, so much effort and yet unsuccessful. Atleast, I can say that I have tasted failure in life. But that does not mean that I will give up. Because thats not even an option.

It is a bitter feeling, a pinch to the heart because I know I wasnt any less deserving. And any number of condolences are not going to make it any better. For someone who has never failed a single course, gotten great grades, this is a new phase and an unfamiliar ground.

I have broken expectations of family and colleagues and I dont know if I will ever be able to meet their eyes like before, if I would ever be able to hold my head up high.

I know that I can clear it next time and I will, the next time, but it sucks that I didnt make it this year. I will beat this beast in the next round.

2011-11-22T14:56:00.000-05:00

They wished each other happy anniversary, for they made it to 19 months. And soon after, the old hustle, clutter and commotion started again, words exchanged. Is it really celebration time or the continuation of the old saga?

2011-11-13T13:36:00.000-05:00

Some experiences are hard to explain.
They are hard to be understood.
Like the significance of a movie that you and I wanted to watch. It still reminds me of you.

All these unique experiences make us and that is how we say each person is unique bcause of these unique experiences.

2011-11-06T09:25:00.000-05:00

My stars are predicting a singlehood future.

Its not us anymore, it is you and I
If you commit the mistakes, I am not going to run after you.

2011-11-04T23:05:00.000-04:00

A silence, a weird silence. A silence that I am growing accustomed to.

2011-10-31T19:55:00.000-04:00

Even when I am so annoyed with you, when I am angry at you, you still manage to make me smile with all your love.

As your fb status says....This day 3 years ago was a very lucky day.

2011-10-22T21:17:00.000-04:00

Something in me is dying, I dont want to drown but float and swim against this current.

2011-10-16T22:24:00.000-04:00

Aaj akele rehne me bhi sakoon hai, par dil me bhi ajab se khwab hai.
Zindagi badalti hai har mod pe, ek hum hi hai joh har kadam pe door hai.

10th Oct

2011-10-14T21:01:00.001-04:00

My big day was very different this time. Drama still seems to be its favourite, this time it was relatives.

I missed you a lot and I missed my power puff girls!

My sister stood by my side, theres always been that one person whos always stood by me.

Thanks for the wishes from near and dear.

Above all, Thank you God for giving me what was lacking last year, my family.

2011-10-06T22:44:00.002-04:00

Adapt and keep on moving.

Life throws lemons but I decided to make lemonades.

Question to the philosophers

2011-10-01T18:15:00.000-04:00

To all the philosophers out there, I pose this question to you

Why is there a need for people to be with you

Why is there a need for people to need you

2011-09-25T00:07:00.000-04:00

Little things that show that we are binded matter. Show is not the right word, reassure.

Little things that reassure that we are binded matter.

Everyday reminders

2011-09-22T22:10:00.000-04:00

Today, I entered into my calender for an everyday reminder...

Stay positive, talk sweet and smile.

2011-09-18T20:55:00.000-04:00

An advent of something that my heart and soul have been waiting for years, finally its happening.

Its true, when you really want something, you will get it eventually.

First day to work.

God, please be at my side.

Priorities

2011-09-15T22:49:00.001-04:00

Finally finished this marathon today. I will have to wait for the result for 2 months.

As my eyes open back to the reality, things have changed yet again.

Dont set someone as ur priority for whom you are option.

Sigh

2011-09-13T22:22:00.000-04:00

Im hoping I get through this, scared but hopeful!

2011-09-09T19:44:00.000-04:00

why is our consciousness so clean that somebody being upset at us is taken so seriously even though the reasons can be mundane? and how is it that some people couldnt care any less.

2011-09-09T16:36:00.002-04:00

I got it all wrong...

Life is not about finding yourself, but life is about creating yourself.

What you see is what you get

2011-09-01T10:51:00.002-04:00

People's selfishness disappoint me, their motives confuse me but I will continue to give and expect in return, because I cannot not expect. For atleast my inner thoughts and my tongue are aligned and I am who I am. My face and my mind, they are what you actually see.

"There are two kinds of people in the world: givers and takers. The takers may eat better, but the givers sleep better."
Yay to good sleep!

2011-08-23T15:24:00.000-04:00

Ran too much now, after and behind. Now, its time to take a step back.

Running is good but running behind someone is not.

2011-08-22T20:55:00.000-04:00

To wake up each morning and know that it is not the same,
To look at a movie and wish someone was here
To drive and recollect those memories
To go on facebook and flicker through those pictures
To remind oneself of good times ahead when going to sleep
To message on the old number knowing there would no response
To talk to everyone and yet talk to no one

It is true, we realize the importance of someone only when they are not around.

Fairy tales to reality

2011-08-21T21:03:00.000-04:00

Ideals and fairy tales are so far from reality. Fairy tales are pink, yellow, blue and loads of colours.
Reality is black, white and a little of both.

Life is this process of transition from fairy tales to reality, from movies to news, from fiction to facts.

Perspective

2011-08-20T18:48:00.000-04:00

Life is not about consistently doing glamorous things to make yourself happy, life is finding happiness in small things, the daily mundane chores. Its all about perspective you see.

2011-08-11T00:09:00.000-04:00

A word for a word..

I miss you and want to see you soon..

2011-08-05T23:37:00.000-04:00

You can never have everything in life at one point of time. There will always be something missing. Coming back to the city was a challenge but the company of people, friends I cherish, made it so much easier. I see him almost everywhere, be it the coffee shop, any restaurant, mall, a walk, silence...

So far, its been a very calming time, something that I needed for a long time, spending time, sharing a laugh with people that matter. And today, I can say that, when I go back, I ll be happy and content to live off this love and affection I received.

Thank you God, you listen to my inner soul.

2011-07-25T00:16:00.001-04:00

It only hurts at the end, it always did.
Please don't go.

I wish there was a perfect balance between parents and you.

2011-07-24T01:17:00.002-04:00

Your own words defy you

2nd hurdle cleared.

2011-07-22T11:55:00.001-04:00

After all the trials and tribulations, bad dreams, finally the morning came with the news I wanted to hear. I am so glad, so happy and so relieved that I cleared the exam. The one month was such a grilling experience. I would want to thank God, parents, sister, ss, spc, pj, sd, mj and friends for being there, for dealing with me when I am stressed which is not a pleasant sight..

Two down, one more to go...

Good night

2011-07-19T23:55:00.000-04:00

As I l wait for my eyes to close and take me to the world of dreams, I miss hearing you say 'Good night' .

2011-07-18T01:16:00.000-04:00

Watching u go was the hardest thing, waiting to see your last hand wave in the air before you walked was a necessity.

4 years seems like an eternity and I pray to God to keep me so busy and my plate so full that my heart gets fooled and does not realize your absence.

I stayed strong until I had the shoulders of SS to cry on. I am thankful to God for this friend is so amazing .

The city of ottawa seemed to have a connection with me. It understood me and cried along when I returned

thats life

2011-07-10T22:09:00.000-04:00

Every night, I pray for you and its been over 3 years now. I still have hope although what I see still saddens me. From working in a big software company and being the positive influential person with so much energy every second, to now being confined to the very basic routines of life..

I wish and I pray to go biking again with you, to talk to you.....

Life is harsh, life is unpredictable and sometimes, the only answer you have to the question "why him" is "thats life"

2011-07-08T18:52:00.000-04:00

Do no good but please dont do any bad either.

Fake trees

2011-07-03T20:10:00.001-04:00

For what I thought I had seeded and invested in the past five years, it all seems unreal and untrue now.

So kiss me and smile for me,

Tell me that you ll wait for me,

Hold me like you'll never let me go....

Today, even this song seems meaningless.

2011-07-02T01:20:00.002-04:00

Badly bruised, but will stay strong, coz I can, I will, I must.

Half a decade...

2011-06-26T10:53:00.000-04:00

It saddens me to know that he is going to be off soon, for what already seems like eternity.

The past year , I have cherished so much, gotten to know so much, learnt whats not taught in classes, smiled as memories were being created, gave my heart and soul to this person who deserves every bit, whos been with me through thick or thin, whos carried me through tough times and whos been this guard protecting me.

How I wish I could freeze time now and not let him go, but that ll be selfish. We both have careers awaiting for us, the reality standing at the door step.

Theres never a goodbye, its just see you soon..

2011-06-18T10:32:00.000-04:00

People who care and matter , will care no matter what, regardless of the busy schedules, the huge mentally created distances, the prenotion.

Thanks MJ!

2011-06-08T22:29:00.001-04:00

Third day and I am already so tired. People that are not in the loop dont understand the intensity of this.
Skip the class and I have to say, no, I cant.

I thought you will understand the pressure, but you dont, you just add to it like usual. The perks of not being single.

I am going to focus on this to the best of my abilities. Things will work out because they have to and God is with me.

2011-06-06T20:51:00.000-04:00

The happiness is subtle, but it is there. After three long years, finally got the job I always wanted. Right on track. Thank you God and thank you to those who stood by me....

Music, dance and life..

2011-05-31T19:24:00.001-04:00

">The tunes to my dance...
the music that sums up my life..
the lyrics that touches the heart and shakes the soul
I am still looking out for them....

Kabhi..

2011-05-28T15:14:00.003-04:00

kabhi kissi ki narazgi bebas kar jaati hai

kabhi kissi ki berukhi kuch yaad dila jati hai

kabhi kissi ki bewafai dil me aag laga jaati hai

aur kabhi yeh khamoshi zinda maar jaati hai......

2011-05-27T14:13:00.003-04:00

In this thin air, I too shall disappear.

2011-05-26T23:11:00.000-04:00

Does an individual fulfill a loved one's want by stepping over their consciousness? Is that love? I think its more of stubbornness.

2011-05-25T23:08:00.000-04:00

I can feel the changing tides, the changing lives now..

The constant movement and the shifting...

Last date to work tomorrow and then study leave...

These weeks to come will be challenging....

God is with me like always..

2011-05-23T20:22:00.000-04:00

At the end, the only one to stand by you is Almighty.

I have a special relation with Him that is not bounded by religion and I do not need to go to temples or churches for that. All I need to do is be my true self and talk to Thee..

2011-05-08T21:02:00.000-04:00

you dont want to be back...
SIGH and here I was waiting for these weeks to quickly pass by....

2011-05-07T23:08:00.002-04:00

Strange things happen...the first week, I missed you a lot, the second week, life moved on. It makes me wonder....

2011-05-04T18:42:00.003-04:00

Fingers crossed, God, please be at my side and help me achieve my dream.

2011-05-02T22:40:00.001-04:00

Overtime, you start taking each other for granted.

I was wondering how did MT ever understand me so well. Now that I think about it, it astonishes me. Inspite of the distances, he just knew whenever I was upset or when I wanted to talk for that - extra 5 minutes- and I didnt even need to say anything.

2011-05-01T15:17:00.001-04:00

The book, The Secret said that if you want anything, if you really wish to have something, write it down as though destiny is being re-written and then the whole universe will work towards that thought..

So, today, I wish that my life was beautiful just like they show in Yash Raj movies..

2011-04-28T23:50:00.001-04:00

I miss you a lot...I almost cried talking to you because I ache for you...

2011-04-21T19:13:00.002-04:00

We are almost there....through thick and thin...we made it!

Lost in the wind..

2011-04-14T21:13:00.000-04:00

Some days, all you need is a hello....
A quick salut from your "priorities" that you are remembered..

Abrupt...

2011-04-06T20:14:00.000-04:00

Days and months seem like a waste

Lost what I could get..

And left with nothing

No trust, not even you..

2011-04-05T20:26:00.000-04:00

Why talk about clothes when your actions defy everything.

2011-03-30T20:58:00.000-04:00

A proud Canadian and an Indian by heart...

2011-03-28T19:07:00.000-04:00

I try to find the memories of you in you and I fail miserably.

2011-03-23T22:37:00.002-04:00

I feel complete when I am with you
Just like the bird and the flower,
Sun and may
Light and day
Moon and night
Cheese and wine
I am yours
And you are mine.

2011-03-23T22:36:00.001-04:00

With love and affection that fill my heart,
I want to share it with you and only you.
Because you are my king, you are the prince and you are my everything.

For you..

2011-03-23T22:35:00.000-04:00

Like the moon, like the stars ever so bright,
I shall always be there every night.
And when you open your eyes to the new born sun,
I ll be there to entice every dawn.

Love is wine or fabric...

2011-03-22T00:29:00.001-04:00

Does love grow like the wine, better over the years...

or does it fade like the colours of a fabric?

In Thy hands.

2011-03-20T22:50:00.003-04:00

Dhundhla jaayein jo manzilein
Ik pal ko tu nazar jhuka
Jhuk jaaye sar jahan wahi
Milta hai rab ka raasta
Teri kismat tu badal de
Rakh himmat bus chal de
Tere saathi mere kadmon ke hain nishaan

Tu na jaane aas paas hai khuda

Tu na jaane aas paas hai khuda..

At this hour, I find myself in Thy company, in Thy hands. And I patiently wait for my turn. Luck is not in my favour but Thou is and so is perseverance.

Beauty of compromises and relationships.

2011-03-15T01:36:00.003-04:00

You are right everytime and I am wrong everytime even when I am right. And if I do not accept that, I have ego and pride.

2011-03-03T00:59:00.001-05:00

God save the world from ego and materialism because I tried, but all I saw was bitterness and disapproval.

Past and present

2011-02-28T13:48:00.000-05:00

I smile when I try to retrieve the past because I can let it rest in peace. I have found what I always wanted and it couldnt have been better. This is better than the best.

Our worlds will never cross but I want to thank you for making me open my heart.

God, I thank you for this journey, may it never end and may it bring the best of me, for my family and friends.

2011-02-27T23:29:00.002-05:00

Conflict between heart and mind and both seem right.

2011-02-12T10:54:00.001-05:00

Everything on the cover is fine, everything under the skin is a different story

2011-02-05T00:09:00.000-05:00

With each passing day, I love you more.

2011-01-27T17:45:00.000-05:00

And so my game plan is to start weaving my life here.

2011-01-07T13:02:00.002-05:00

There is something that I haven't learnt from my past experience that God wants me to learn.
It seems like the past is repeating itself.

Maybe I took my life granted. I thought this would be permanent.
I thought this would last forever, the perfect set of friends, family, school and lately, love.

Maybe God wants me to learn to not get tied down, to not oppose changing tides and to open my heart to each day with new horizons.

Happy New Year!

2011-01-02T14:06:00.001-05:00

A thought as we enter a new millennium

what should matter in life
...is not what we bought, but what we built ...
Not what we got, but what we gave. ...
is not our success but our significance. ...
is not what we learned but what we taught. ...
is every act of integrity, compassion, courage or sacrifice that enriched, empowered or encouraged others to live a better life. ...
is not our competence but our character ...
is not how many people we knew but how many will feel a lasting loss when we're gone.
What will matter, is not our memories but the memories that live in those who loved us.
What will matter is how long we will be remembered by whom and for what.

Wishing everyone a very Happy and blessed New Year.

2010-12-19T20:16:00.001-05:00

Somedays, I wonder is it worth it?

Gobi ka parantha

2010-12-16T13:45:00.001-05:00

Mummy aur mummy ka khanna

Mummy aur mummy ka datna

Mummy aur mummy ka bolna

Mummy aur mummy ka ruthna

Mummy aur mummy ka manana

Mummy aur mummy ka gobi ka paranthaa

Missing home, can't wait to go back

2010-12-12T13:17:00.001-05:00

Life goes on.
While you embrace all the changes. it becomes a lot easier.

Leaving the city behind is going to be a lot easier now. I shall be taking a lot of old memories, that I still think of, not many fresh new memories to haunt.

2010-11-03T23:30:00.000-04:00

Trying to stay positive. I received my CA stuff and it brought me back to the world I always belonged to. Work is stressful, but I will try to try to be happy and work harder.

2010-10-27T18:58:00.000-04:00

The absence of one, is the essence for the presence of another.

2010-10-09T19:42:00.000-04:00

In unknown ways, I feel lucky to have you.
You treat me like princess and nothing less.

2010-10-03T18:30:00.000-04:00

How I felt guilty for moving on and still held on

And now I realize how the world moves on..

Be true to yourself and thats all that matters.

2010-09-30T22:00:00.000-04:00

When you look outside, instead of inside for happiness, aspiration, meaning, sooner or later, it leads to problems.

Blue is the colour of the day.

2010-09-29T23:34:00.001-04:00

As I continued to ponder about past, present and future, you filled my afternoon with a little surprise.
On my car's dash board, I saw traces of you.

2010-09-26T19:13:00.001-04:00

I gotta stay strong, I gotta pray all along
I gotta have faith, I gotta not sway
I gotta trust myself, I gotta muster courage.

I gotta stay strong, I gotta pray all along.

Lightning and thunderstorm of my mind

2010-09-22T08:31:00.001-04:00

The thunderstorm and lightning last night was how I felt. And there is nothing much I can do.

In the morning, the sun came out so bright as if nothing ever happened. There should be hope that it will be fine.

2010-09-14T22:46:00.002-04:00

A ngel S..

Very thoughtful of you, thank you :)

2010-09-11T19:49:00.000-04:00

I feel thankful for having you as a friend JH, who doesnt judge and who is unconditionally there.

So far and yet so close.

2010-09-10T19:59:00.002-04:00

I am not ready for this new change...Please God, I do not want to lose myself yet again. I dont want to endure it all again.

Amen.

2010-09-06T20:15:00.000-04:00

My little one is off on her own.

May God bless her and be with her at all times.

I shall miss you!

Truly blessed.

2010-09-02T18:42:00.000-04:00

I met an old man who couldnt talk or listen.

It reminded me of a poem I read when I was in school,

"Forgive me God when I whine, I can speak and talk, The world is mine..."

What saddens me sometimes is the fact that we see our blessings when we see the less fortunate ones.

Never forget how lucky you are...

2010-08-30T21:37:00.000-04:00

Because I can, I will and I must.

There is no other way.

Suffocated

2010-08-25T20:37:00.001-04:00

Suffocated.

I am a weed

Feeling guilty because I followed my heart and not hers.

Continuous plans being made to get rid of me.

And I look for an escape while I am trapped.

Silence is not awkward

2010-08-14T19:48:00.000-04:00

People find silence awkward.

Words dont always need to fill in the silence..

Sitting next to someone and not having the need to talk and just enjoying the beauty is a bliss!

I was told by a friend that I am a silent person..maybe layers below layers, I am one.

2010-08-08T22:03:00.000-04:00

How does a ritual have so much power to bind two people together for a lifetime?

Marriage is pronounced when its in the mind and soul of two lovers.

Reality check

2010-08-04T22:32:00.000-04:00

I saw racism today and I could not do anything about it.

It does exist, but it is subtle here.

But how can I complain when there is so much discrimination back home, when people make fun of each other openly, where being a mere worker lowers your standard....